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2025-01-30

ive finally finished my grad assignment for school, and i keep trying not to look at the finished result.

i modeled this house from a game that never got made from a studio id never heard of, called onomatopeya. i found the art after scrolling through artstation and pinterest for about an hour, being bombarded with ai images even when the tag was -filtered out.

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when i finally found the concept, it didnt interest me, i had no passion for it. why would i make something like that?

for the past couple of months ive been browsing more old pages than usual; going on wiby a lot and hitting the surprise button. its a nice way to kill time, a short while ago i stumbled into a page dedicated to the bugs bunny show, for instance. youll almost always stumble into something that interests you, people who have deep passion for all kinds of things youd never even given much thought to. i found another website thats built up pages and pages of lore about tree octopi, which according to the site, are at risk of extinction from being hunted by their natural predator the sasquatch.

at about week 6 of working on the assignment, i burnt out harder than i ever have before. this assignment came after 2 practically identical assignments, both of which i poured more time and effort into than i have for nearly any art project. in neither of which had i made something that i was proud of. i dont look at the results from those either. i posted them where i was told to and then i was done. i dont want to see them again.

i tab into the bugs bunny page. the first line of text excluding a quote is
Bugs Bunny personifies supreme heroism to generations of television viewers. He is the principal signature character for Warner Brothers animation and the beloved depiction of America's- and humanity's- aspirations to prevail over all difficulties and antagonists.
and instinctively i laugh. the page isnt very well formatted. im no expert, but there are big blocks of text abruptly split by images scattered left right and center with no apparent ordered structure. the content of the page stretches from end to end across the screen.

i fill out the report document. i explain my temporary absence. i think about bugs bunny. i submit screenshots of textures, uv maps, wireframe. i think about the scattered images. i rename the pdf. i turn it in. i decide i dont want to look at the result of the assignment again.

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on the bugs bunny page. it kept going. paragraph after paragraph. and then episode summaries for half the length of the site. there was so much. someone cared about this so much.
someone was so interested in this,
someone was so passionate about this,
it is a genuine work of art.

i dont look at, but think about my grad assignment. my past 2 assignments. every assignment ive done for this school.

damn, i couldve been spending all that time writing about bugs bunny.